ellie

Despite my original doubts, I finally did have a baby.

And she is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.

Presenting Ellie.  

Born 2/27/2013 at 1:34pm. 6lbs 9oz. 19.75 inches long.

The hospital took these pictures for free the night after she was born, and sometimes I think my heart might literally melt when I look at them.  But she is even better in person.

All of my concerns over the past nine months simply melted away the moment I heard that cry and saw her beautiful, tiny body.  I fell in love quicker than I've ever fallen for anything in my entire life.

Now I have a whole new set of concerns.  Is she getting enough to eat?  Am I feeding her often enough?  What is that tiny little scratch on the top of her head?  Does she need me to watch her every move while she sleeps so I can make sure she's still breathing?

As hard as it is to believe, I think Tim worries about her even more than I do.  And that's saying a lot.

But I surprise myself every single day with how much pure joy I am finding in motherhood.  Already.  I cherish every movement, every cry, every whimper.  My heart constricts impossibly when her cries are soothed by my touch.  I am completely convinced of her superior ability to lift her head, display incredible lung strength, and capture the hearts of millions.  And I wonder how we could have ever possibly spent our lives without her.

I will write her birth story as soon as possible.  It just might take a little more concentration than I am capable of at the moment.  But I can't wait to share with you all the story of our little miracle.

Because that's exactly what she is.

A miracle.