Wednesday, June 22, 2011

the engagement [part 1]

Truth: I knew we were going to get engaged before it happened.

There is a very simple reason for this: I picked out the ring.

Ok, let me back up.

Tim and I had been dating for eight months and I still had no clue whether or not I should to marry him.  [To those of you in the LDS world, that seems like a fairly long time, but to those of you in the rest of the world this could seem like a very short amount of time.  Let's just say it was a happy medium.]

I prayed about it every day.  Every.Single.Day.  I made lists of pros and cons.  I tried to picture myself getting married [and being married] to him.  I talked to Tim and to 36.25 other people about it endlessly.  Still nothing.  I tried to be patient and just wait until I felt something about the decision.

Finally, after receiving some counsel from my parents and from a very dear friend, I felt I had my answer:

I needed to make the decision for myself.

I knew that marrying Tim was what I wanted.  And so I decided that that was what I was going to do.  And basically told Heavenly Father that he should [most definitely] stop me if I was wrong.

On that very same day, Tim came to pick me up so we could go on a road trip to California.  I opened the door to find him with a bouquet of red and yellow roses in his hands.  [Red and yellow are two of my very favorite colors.  An odd combination?  Possibly.  Still awesome?  Definitely.]  I just remember feeling so happy - not just because of the [very beautiful] flowers - but just to see him.  And hug him.  He helped me grab my bags and we were out the door.

During our drive, I tried to think about how I was going to tell him that I was ready.  We mostly made small talk for about 30 minutes, when I finally said, " addition to seeing the beach, we should maybe do something else while we're in California."  He looked at me inquisitively, and I continued, "Like maybe something big and life-changing that involves a small, very sparkly object."

I had his full attention now.

"I was thinking maybe we could start looking at rings."

As understanding dawned, his face lit up quickly.  A huge smile broke across his face.

"Do you mean it?"

I smiled [possibly bigger than I ever had but probably not as big as I have since].  And then I shyly nodded.

Tim had been ready for this step for a long time.  [A very long time - in LDS months at least.]  He had just [very patiently] been waiting for me to be ready.  The look of pure happiness on his face when he knew I meant it said it all.

The rest of the trip, we talked and giggled and planned and felt utterly and completely happy.

Continue on to Part 2.


Natalie said...

Awwww! Yay!!! Thats what it is supposed to feel like!! I'm so happy for you!!! :)

Annie Citrine said...

BAHHH!! So SO happy. :)

katielizabethawkes said...

I like the part about 36.25 people. Oh...the rest of the stuff u said is good too. Ohhh I kid! I demand part 2! I must know how this ends!

Cait said...

Road trip to California? Would this be the road trip for a certain wedding? ;) Did you look at rings in cali? Why didn't you tell me sooner? Congrats again. Can't wait to see you in august!

Tim said...

Great Post!!! I love you babe!

shirley elizabeth said...

love love love like like like!

Kate said...

So happy for you! Congrats!

Emma Frances said...

I love part one of your engagement story. I remember getting the same answer when I prayed about whether or not I should marry my husband. :] Also, red and yellow are also my favorite colors. They were my wedding colors!